Creative Imperative

FIC: Divided Loyalties (Adult)

2008-09-20T12:10:10Z

Title: Divided Loyalties
Rating: Adult
Pairing: John/Ellen
Summary: You concentrated on the game, because it was a thing you could control. There was no pleasure in it, neither satisfaction in your skill nor triumph in clearing the table. Only this: what you could control, because it kept the chaos in your mind at bay. Only the familiar, simple action of the pool cue in your hand, keeping you from screaming the pain in your heart.
Notes: Written for tvaddictgurl in spnsummerlove. This fic assumes that the story Demon!Sam told Jo about Bill Harvelle's death was a lie.

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Fic: Never Say Die (16/16)

2008-05-28T16:25:03Z

Title: Never Say Die (16/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (15/16)

2008-05-27T15:47:57Z

Title: Never Say Die (15/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello. [Re: the mention of Bella in this chapter - yeah, I know canon contradicts this somewhat. Sorry 'bout that.]
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (14/16)

2008-05-26T14:30:26Z

Title: Never Say Die (14/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (13/16)

2008-05-25T18:41:58Z

Title: Never Say Die (13/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (12/16)

2008-05-22T15:47:02Z

Title: Never Say Die (12/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (11/16)

2008-05-21T15:20:25Z

Title: Never Say Die (11/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (10/16)

2008-05-20T16:56:55Z

Title: Never Say Die (10/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (9/16)

2008-05-19T15:44:24Z

Title: Never Say Die (9/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (8/16)

2008-05-17T15:12:18Z

Title: Never Say Die (8/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello. I shouldn't even mention how much this chapter was "Jossed" by the season finale. Actually, I was surprised by how close I got. After watching the finale, I was tempted to make a few changes to this chapter, just small things to bring it more into line with the canon. But, no. This is my vision of how it might have gone down; I'm gonna let it stand.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (7/16)

2008-05-14T16:21:44Z

Title: Never Say Die (7/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (6/16)

2008-05-13T14:11:55Z

Title: Never Say Die (6/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (5/16)

2008-05-12T18:43:33Z

I'm not yet home from Asylum (which was awesome!) so I'm going to be slow responding to comments. That said, it's time I posted a new chapter, so I'm co-opting a friend's PC to get this done!

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Fic: Never Say Die (4/16)

2008-05-08T11:14:50Z

Title: Never Say Die (4/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (3/16)

2008-05-07T19:53:22Z

Title: Never Say Die (3/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die (2/16)

2008-05-05T14:56:44Z

Title: Never Say Die (2/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Previous chapters: archived here.

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Fic: Never Say Die 1/16

2008-05-04T19:06:19Z

Title: Never Say Die (1/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen (see notes in Part 0)
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. (See notes in Part 0 for more details)
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.

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Fic: Never Say Die 0/16

2008-05-04T19:03:01Z

Title: Never Say Die (0/16)
Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: Adults Only
Pairing: John/Ellen
Genre: AU, Darkfic.
Summary: After a hunt that went horribly wrong, John wakes up in a California hospital. It's thirteen years later, everyone he trusted seems to be dead, and he has no idea how to find his sons. Meanwhile, unknown to John, Dean's time is running out.
Warnings: Darkfic. Character death. Torture. See notes at the bottom of the chapter list if you need more detailed warnings.
Spoilers: Up to Jus In Bello.
Notes: This is my version of how the third season might end. You know, if I were writing it, and if the show were about John instead of his boys.
Notes on the season finale: The story was finished before the last few episodes of S3 aired, so I had to make some choices about what would happen when Dean's deal came due and which of the hundreds of possible demons might hold Dean's contract. Needless to say, my choices and Kripke's are not the same, though I was surprised by how close I came in some details. Ultimately, for the purposes of my plot it didn't matter much which demon held the contract, only that it wasn't Lilith. Which, well, now we know how the canon turned out. My story is AU, it's internally consistent and it's certainly not the first time I've been "Jossed". So here it is.

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